What about you? Just saying lol
I like to refer to myself on this blog as the ‘Hopeful Addict’ because that’s who I am and who I will always be. Outside of this blog I’m commonly referred to as Michelle, because that’s my name haha
My backstory. I used to use food as a coping method for emotional pain, which led me to become addicted to sugar. I thought about it every minute of every day. Sugar was my drug of choice, my poison. I would eat it when I ‘needed it’ to survive my emotional state. I wasn’t eating because I was hungry, I was eating it because I was addicted. Insert name of my blog here ‘I’m Not Hungry, I’m Addicted.’ lol
On January 1, 2011 I finally decided to get ‘sober’ from refined sugar, so I gave it up. Cold turkey, just like that, because f*ck sugar.
It hasn’t been an easy road. Every single day is a challenge for me. How will I feel today? What obstacles will I have to overcome? What emotions will I go through? Like other addicts I have good and bad days. The bad days are the ones that challenge my weakness, bring out my addiction. When I’m overwhelmed or anxious, when I’m sad and heart broken…it makes me crave sugar. It’s in those times I have to work harder to get through it. I’m happy to say that I have been able to get through it by taking life as it comes one day, one hour, one minute, one second at a time.
Addiction is a lifelong disease. It never goes away, you’re never really cured. That’s what I believe. If there was a cure I’d be able to not think about sugar at all, not feel weak around it on my bad days, not feel out of control with it, but that’s not the case. People who suffer from addiction are often some of the most emotionally charged people in the world. We feel deeply, we live passionately, and we have addictive personalities.
If you’re also addicted to sugar or food, and you’ve found yourself reading my blog, I hope that my journey is able to help inspire you to never give up, you are not alone. I’m taking you guys on my honest, personal journey of overcoming my sugar addiction. The trials and tribulations of my life. My battles emotionally and physically, and yes I will highlight my weight and food throughout.
Recovering from sugar addiction is hard, but it is possible.
Let your journey begin…