Today was kind of a cluster I’m not going to lie. It started off ok but then quickly turned towards crazy. It was 98 degrees by 9:45am…we’re in the middle of a heatwave. So my boss decided that we should try to cook some cookies in a car and throw it in my show lol NOOOOOOOOOOO!! So stupid, like who cares? Honestly! It was completely pointless and it ended up causing so much chaos, everyone was just ticked off after that.
On the show today, besides that crap, we had homemade ice cream sandwiches and cupcakes. Lots and lots of cupcakes. They all looked so good…I would have loved one of those chocolate chip cookies after the day I was having but I didn’t. lol
After work I went back to my apartment, and an hour later my Mom came over because she lost power. I certainly never thought my Mother would be my first houseguest but low and behold she is. She’s sleeping on my couch right now in fact. I love my Mother but it’s giving me an incredible amount of anxiety. I couldn’t really do anything because if the power were to turn back on she would leave, and I had to be there because I would have to lock the door since my landlord gave me the wrong spare key (figures!). I don’t know why but it made me feel like a prisoner in my own home, I felt very claustrophobic.
I didn’t really know how to handle the situation, as it made me very uncomfortable so I decided to just go to the gym….yes in the middle of a heatwave. lol I only stayed for 20 minutes, but the gym was cool and air conditioned and my workout went well. When I got back to my apartment her power had still not been turned on so I decided to set up the couch for her and watch a few episodes of Game of Thrones.
I don’t know where I went wrong today, I’ve been trying really hard to be positive and keep everyone around me positive and somehow today I got caught up in nothing but negativity and it has completely drained me emotionally. It was like something was in the water and I was watching a train just go right off the tracks and there was nothing I could do to stop it.
Today was simply a stressful day start to finish…I don’t feel like myself, I don’t feel like I was able to unwind and regroup and I don’t feel like I’m in my apartment, I feel like I’m back living at my Mother’s house. haha My first sleepover at my apartment…is my worst nightmare!! This is NOT how I saw it happening lol
I know everything will be fine in the morning and somehow everything will work itself out, and I too will work out my crazy emotions that I’m having right now, and my Mom will be fine and I’ll be fine…I just have to get to the morning!
Tomorrow is a new day…tomorrow is a new day…tomorrow is a new day…
Breakfast: 1 cups Special K Red Berries, 1 cup almond milk
Lunch: 1 banana, 1 Activia Vanilla Yogurt, 1 Foldout Flatbread, 4 slices thin sliced Sargento Provolone cheese
Dinner: 1 Foldout Flatbread, 2 slices thin sliced Sargento Provolone cheese, 2 oz turkey, 2 tbl sour cream, 1/4 avocado, 1 cup cherries
Snack: 2 string cheeses
Exercise: 20 minutes on the eliptical
Calories burned: 231
Current weight: 248.9 lbs
Current feeling: Anxious