August 9, 2020 โ€“ย The Year That Never Was.

Hello friends.

It’s been a while since I last posted anything on this blog…586 days to be exact. I figured now that we were all in the midst of the year that never was, now would be a good time to come back and say hi…so hello again ๐Ÿ™‚

Like the rest of the world, when I think of 2020 my first reaction is UGH! I mean come on…right?ย When we all started 2020 it was the chance of another new beginning. We all rung in the new year filled with hopes and dreams of all the wonderful things we would accomplish once the clock struck 12. How quickly that changed.

The Universe is truly powerful, Mother Nature took back control, and for the first time ever, we’ve all had to put our lives on a collective pause. I’m someone who has always believed that everything happens for a reason and I can’t help but feel that this is all by design, and somehow, in some way, this world will be better when this is all over.

During these past six months in quarantine I’ve done a lot of self-reflection and self-assessment. I’m fortunate to still have a job, and the ability to work remotely, and for that I am grateful. Without having to commute into the office I have gained back valuable time in my day. I’ve spent 5 of the past 6 months in solitude and it’s given me a lot of time to think about my life, and who I am as a person, and what I hope to accomplish in my life.

More to come, but wanted to say a quick hello.

Love to all XO Stay Safe!

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January 1, 2019 – Evolving.

If my addiction has taught me anything, it’s this, I’m stronger that I ever gave myself credit for. When I look back at my life, I think wow, I’ve been through so much heartache, so many ups and downs, and yet here I am smiling, excited about life. That’s something I’m proud of.

I look at everything so differently now…I didn’t make mistakes, I learned lessons, and I’ll continue to learn more, and I’m excited about that!

Forgive yourself.
Love yourself.
Live in the present.ย 

For the past year and a half I have been on this amazing spiritual journey that has taken me into the depths of my soul, and helped me understand myself. Since beginning this awakening back in August 2017, I feel more aligned with the Universe, my soul, and myself more than ever before. I’m not changing, I’m evolving. I feel as if I am being guided by the Universe through signs and synchronicities that I can’t explain, but it’s leading me to becoming who I was always meant to be.

Each morning I practice gratitude, and every night I meditate for 15 minutes before I go to bed. There is something so empowering to me about truly feeling grateful for my life, the people who love and support me, and this amazing planet we call home. It helps me stay focused on what’s important, and gives me a true sense of peace. At night when I meditate I release all my worries, my fears, my ego, and tap into my subconscious, connecting with my higher self. This journey has really taught me the true meaning of unconditional love, not just for those around me, but for the first time…myself.

The life you live is the design you create, and I’m ready to design the best year EVER!

Happy New Year to you all!


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July 17, 2018 – Anonymous.

For years, I found comfort in hiding behind this anonymous blog, only ever revealing my first name. I wanted to protect myself from this cruel world that’s filled with judgement and ridicule. I feared the people I knew and what they would think of me. I was overwhelmed by my sugar addiction, and really depressed. I had lost control. I needed to talk about it, but I didn’t want people to judge me, so I started this blog. My safe space.

Being anonymous gave me my own superpower. I felt like I could talk openly and honestly talk about my struggles with sugar addition, without the fear of judgement. It was freeing. It was therapuetic.

I have only ever shared my blog with one person in 7 years. At first, the idea of sharing this blog with anyone who knew me completely terrified me. It was like handing over an unlocked journal to someone and asking them not to judge or reveal your inner most thoughts and secrets to the rest of the world. It’s personal. It’s very personal. I love my family and friends, but they can be judgemental at times, and I didn’t want to risk it, so I never shared it with them. Then last year, I met someone who completely changed my life. This person made me feel so accepted that I opened up completely and let them in, and I shared my blog. I never felt judged even for a second. That was a powerful moment for me, a turning point. We never talked about it after I shared the link. Truth be told we don’t talk now, and I have no idea if they ever even read it, but I have no regrets. I was able to trust again and that was major for me.

I finally learned to let go of the one thing that was always holding me back…fear. I’ve come a long way from where I first began. Fear was this powerful emotion that would easily control me and take over my life in a second if I wasn’t careful. It happened to me many times. I feared my emotions, which made me fear people, which led me to fear the world. It was self destructive.

I realized that the one thing I really feared was myself. My own thoughts about myself created this dissillusion within me that made me live in constant fear. I needed to take back control of my thoughts, of my emotions, I needed to get my power back. To do it, I had to let go of fear completely and replace it with something even more powerful…unconditional love.

Unconditional love has been my focus this past year. I’ve grown so much as a person. I’ve connected with myself on a deeper soul level and I’m learning to unconditionally love and accept me for me. It’s not an easy thing to do, but I get a little bit closer and closer to that love everyday. To me, the ability to love yourself, and others, unconditionally is the ultimate superpower that very few pocess. If I can learn to love myself unconditionally, without having to depend on anyone else to make me happy, or make me feel loved, detaching completely from expectations, then I know I will reach my highest state of happiness and truly feel free. That is my goal. Love is my goal.

Every day I wake up and practice love and gratitude for myself and this life that I’ve been given. It’s a new routine that has honestly changed my life. I don’t just think about what I’m grateful for, what I love, or who I love, I think about the reasons why. I let myself feel my emotions, and it feels great. I also practice self love, where I’ll stare at myself in the mirror and tell myself how beautiful I am, something I never did before. I always relied on other people to tell me if I was attractive or not. Seems silly when you think about it. Other people’s opinions shouldn’t matter. It’s my opinion about myself that matters, that’s the one that means the most. Don’t be afraid to give yourself compliments! It’s OK to love yourself, it’s OK to think you are beautiful, sexy, funny, smart, whatever it may be. EMBRACE IT! Me personally, I am all that and more lol

Soon I will share with you all the details of who I am, and what I look like. It’s time to remove my anonymonity and let the world in on my story. I’m working on a fun project for my “reveal,” and I’m loving it, hopefully you all do too! It’ll take awhile to finish, so stay tuned ๐Ÿ™‚


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May 20, 2018 – Best Week EVER!!

It started on Mother’s Day with the birth of my new niece Kate Veronica! Her middle name is in honor of my Babci, Veronica. I cried for a solid two hours when I heard the name, it meant a lot to me because my Babci was my best friend. The first time Kate opened her eyes and looked at me…I cried even more lol

What makes this moment even more special is that my twin brother and his wife asked me to be Kate’s Godmother and I couldn’t be happier. Literally beaming from head to toe with love!!

How cute is she?? Full head of hair!! Lol

Honestly the birth of my nephew Brian and my niece Kate have been the two most amazing experiences of my life. You never know how much love you are capable of giving until you share in the love of a child. These two little sweethearts have changed me as a person, I cry now at the drop of a hat for example lol And that’s when I’m happy hahahahaha I take after my aunts. No but seriously children are a blessing and I’m very grateful to be the aunt to two amazing, adorable little angels!!! They are my heart forever and always.

My heart is full ๐Ÿ˜

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April 22, 2018 – Angels Above <3

Rip-Quotes-And-Sayings-5Yesterday we laid to rest my best friend’s father John, who died last Friday. He was one of the sweetest men I have ever known, he had a heart of gold. It has been a very sad, emotional week.

John’s death has made me want to try to let go of past resentments I may have held onto, and try to mend fences with old friends, lovers, family members, who I often think about but wish things could of ended up differently. I will always believe in second chances. No one is perfect, myself included, but if your intentions are good and your heart is pure, than love will find a way.

I am grateful for all of my experiences and for everyone who has come in and out of my life. Each experience, every person has taught me another lesson about myself I would have otherwise never known.

Let the past help you shape your future, grow your soul and lead with love in your heart. All you can do is try to be the best person you can and live your best life.

One day today will be your last day. Find your passion, find what makes you happy and hold on to it. Life is worth all the ups and downs.

John – Thank you for all the wonderful life lessons your love for your family has taught me. I will miss your infectious smile and beautiful heart. I know you are reunited with the love of your life. Please watch over and protect Mary and Brendan. Rest in peace my dear friend.

With Love,